36 days until I say "I do" to one of my best friends and the man of my dreams. My stomach has butterflies and I am so incredibly excited. I just can't wait! The anticipation is just killing me. hehe. I keep picturing our special day and how it will go. I have even written out a schedule of how the day would go. I know what you are thinking...crazy girl. hehe. But ultimately, God has his hand's in that day and how it will turn out. I believe no matter what, that day will be very special to Ryan, I, and our families.
A part of me is super stressed, as I tie up lose ends, cross my t's and dot my i's. I keep praying I won't forget anything. Favors, check. Flowers, check. Cake, check. The past few weeks the stress has been increasing a little. I am an extremely laid back person and since the wedding planning began I have been very laid-back and care-free. But as June 26th nears, I feel a sense of tension and stress, fearful that I might miss something or that I haven't done something important. As I scrounge through sevral wedding books that offer checklists, I mark each item off, reassuring myself I have completed every task. If there were one more checklist out there I probably would have it. lol.
I have never been the best event planner and this event, being the biggest of my life, threw some curve balls at me. How was I supposed to know the museum didn't allow real flowers? I don't even know what a peoni is. And I quickly learned the difference between the cost of silk flowers and real. This can often be very misleading. After changing churches and reception venues several times, we found the place where our special day will be held! The church is stunning with cherry wood and stained glass. The reception venue is a quaint colf course with a country-side feel. It says luxury but also has a casual atmosphere. It is beautiful and focuses on the outdoors, which is the picture perfect place for Ryan and I. It fits both of our personalities perfectly. This is truly a dream come true.
And of course, lately I have had that feeling of "is my wedding going to WOW the guests". I hope our special day will be as wonderful and fun to others as it is to us. Of course I want it to go perfectly, for everyone's jaw to drop at the ceremony, for the cake to be just right, for the flowers to be absolutely stunning, and for the music to be just perfect and to have everyone on the dance floor late in to the night. But really, it isn't about the music, the flowers, and the cake. It is about Ryan and I and our special committment to one another. A committment that is blessed by God. It is about saying you will stick together through good and bad and that we will love each other for the rest of our lives. When I get stressed and try so badly to plan out the day to a T, I come back to the fact that it is about Ryan and I embarking on this huge journey together and making a life-time commitment to one another. It doesn't matter if the cake isn't as tall and abundant as I hoped. What matters is that we love each other and we are committing our lives to one another on that day. When I think about Ryan and how we will say "I do", all my fears of how the wedding day will turn out go away. I am truly blessed and God has really given me one of the most amazing things - true love with an amzing man.
I am excited to plan out our lives together, to start a family and to laugh and lean on one another for the rest of our lives. We are truly best friends and I feel absolutely lucky to have this feeling.
36 days and counting!
A part of me is super stressed, as I tie up lose ends, cross my t's and dot my i's. I keep praying I won't forget anything. Favors, check. Flowers, check. Cake, check. The past few weeks the stress has been increasing a little. I am an extremely laid back person and since the wedding planning began I have been very laid-back and care-free. But as June 26th nears, I feel a sense of tension and stress, fearful that I might miss something or that I haven't done something important. As I scrounge through sevral wedding books that offer checklists, I mark each item off, reassuring myself I have completed every task. If there were one more checklist out there I probably would have it. lol.
I have never been the best event planner and this event, being the biggest of my life, threw some curve balls at me. How was I supposed to know the museum didn't allow real flowers? I don't even know what a peoni is. And I quickly learned the difference between the cost of silk flowers and real. This can often be very misleading. After changing churches and reception venues several times, we found the place where our special day will be held! The church is stunning with cherry wood and stained glass. The reception venue is a quaint colf course with a country-side feel. It says luxury but also has a casual atmosphere. It is beautiful and focuses on the outdoors, which is the picture perfect place for Ryan and I. It fits both of our personalities perfectly. This is truly a dream come true.
And of course, lately I have had that feeling of "is my wedding going to WOW the guests". I hope our special day will be as wonderful and fun to others as it is to us. Of course I want it to go perfectly, for everyone's jaw to drop at the ceremony, for the cake to be just right, for the flowers to be absolutely stunning, and for the music to be just perfect and to have everyone on the dance floor late in to the night. But really, it isn't about the music, the flowers, and the cake. It is about Ryan and I and our special committment to one another. A committment that is blessed by God. It is about saying you will stick together through good and bad and that we will love each other for the rest of our lives. When I get stressed and try so badly to plan out the day to a T, I come back to the fact that it is about Ryan and I embarking on this huge journey together and making a life-time commitment to one another. It doesn't matter if the cake isn't as tall and abundant as I hoped. What matters is that we love each other and we are committing our lives to one another on that day. When I think about Ryan and how we will say "I do", all my fears of how the wedding day will turn out go away. I am truly blessed and God has really given me one of the most amazing things - true love with an amzing man.
I am excited to plan out our lives together, to start a family and to laugh and lean on one another for the rest of our lives. We are truly best friends and I feel absolutely lucky to have this feeling.
36 days and counting!
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